In the summer of 2014, I was going through a bit of a rough patch.
I couldn’t have identified why that was at the time, but I’ve since come to the realization that I was heartbroken because I wasn’t achieving what I thought I was capable of in business (I’ve since moved onto new ventures).
I distinctly remember typing “how to live a sensitive person” into YouTube, not expecting to find anything worthwhile. I thought there wasn’t anyone who could understand how I was feeling or why was I feeling that way.
But I was wrong. The first result in YouTube was one of Heidi Sawyer’s videos. Listening to her helped me to identify how I was wired and what it meant. It helped me see both my strengths and weaknesses, and how I got to the point of being depressed.
That is another story for another time, but I was recently reading her free eBook, Life Codes and I learned two new things about myself. This is what I came to understand.
1. I Am Living To Achieve Spiritual Strength
Apparently, I’m a number 5 on the Tree of Life. Don’t ask me exactly how that works, but this is a pre-determined number between one and 11 depending on your birth date.
Up until now, I never knew I was bringing fear and anxiety upon myself and for what reason. Now I know it’s because I’m attempting to face up to the greatest fears in existence so that it translates into greater spiritual strength.
Perfection, to me, means spiritual strength. Therefore, I’m constantly going out of my comfort zone and stretching my boundaries. It’s also why I’m continually engaged in personal development and personal growth.
I would not have come to this understanding without Sawyer’s insights.
2. I Thrive On Change
Sawyer points out that people with Life Code 5 think they might want consistency and stability in their lives, but they in fact thrive on change.
Until it was pointed out to me, I didn’t even realize this. But in my working life, I have always been self-employed, except for a period of six months, when I was in traditional employment.
When new opportunities come my way, I often jump on them. To be fair, this has sometimes been to my detriment, because I take on too much, but evidently, it’s what keeps life exciting and interesting for me.
I can now see how I naturally go looking for change. It’s not even a conscious effort on my part. It happens automatically for me, just like my pursuit of spiritual perfection.
The biggest thing I’ve learned from Sawyer’s material is to give myself more grace, recognize what my strengths are, and embrace the experiences that have shaped who I am. We would all do well to take that step.
If you’d like to find out what your Life Code is, you can find Heidi’s eBook here.
I’m the founder and CEO of The Music Entrepreneur HQ, a resource that offers musicians, music business entrepreneurs, and creatives insights into mentality, mindset, and psychology to unlock their full potential.