I could feel my heart wake up. And it had a message for me. Something I always knew deep down but hadn’t been present to for years — probably since I was a child.
I spent the rest of the day in a state of bliss and love. My mind was present, but so was my heart. And I never knew that was possible.
Meditation had brought this moment to me. And I knew it could bring more.
How I Used to Think About Meditation
I used to think there were only two things you could accomplish with meditation:
- Come away feeling refreshed
- Get an answer to a question
When I sought to feel refreshed, although I’d often feel a bit better after 10 to 20 minutes of meditation, I would often be disappointed that it did not seem to work as a cure-all for exhaustion and tiredness. It was worth the effort, but the results were not phenomenal in my eyes.
And so far as getting answers was concerned, this often happened involuntarily, kind of like how when you go for a walk or a drive or a shower after a long day of work and suddenly new ideas come to you.
As you can tell from my attitude towards meditation at the time, I often had an on again off again relationship with it.
How I Was Introduced to Meditation
Meditation came into my awareness after I experienced an anxiety attack in 2008.
I started reading everything I could find on anxiety, and that’s when I came across meditation.
At the time, it probably would not have amounted to more than a to-do item. In the long list of things to do and not to do in coping with anxiety, meditation was just one item.
But the long-term benefits were there, and they seemed to stack over weeks and months.
How I Used to Meditate
As I was recovering from anxiety, I used to sit down, close my eyes, and focus on my breathing.
Anxious thoughts would sometimes interrupt, causing me to twitch or open my eyes momentarily, but I would give myself grace for “not doing it perfectly,” close my eyes, and start over. I was…